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| Tweet Topic Started: Sep 16 2007, 10:37 PM (391 Views) | |
| Eldin | Sep 16 2007, 10:37 PM Post #1 |
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So, as many of you may have noticed, activity is severely low right now. Yet we're all still here. Now, as my cunning mind has discovered, this is because we have nothing to talk about. I believe the reason why I haven't done my fair share in giving us things to talk about is that my thoughts aren't in tune with the forum. I think about things that people never really discuss here on Wyrda. For example, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I read it because it was there, and I didn't have to pay for the book. Other people made a huge event out of it. Personally, I didn't care much what happened. As another example, manga. Some of you consider that to be a wonderful topic, whereas I frankly don't care about it. I'll read it if it has a good story, but I'll read anything with a good story. I don't see why it's better then normal novels, western graphic novels, movies or even a few television programs. Yet for some reason some of you are fascinated by manga. Not stories. Manga. Some of you don't even care about whether or not the characters are three demensional and if they develop over time, you just want it to be 'cool'. I don't get it, and I never will. I'm just not in tune with your interests, from what I can gather. I still love the lot of you, I'd spill blood, including mine, for you. But I've got nothing to contribute but a few attempts at humor when you bring up topics like you do. So I bring you this. I bring to you what I care about. "What does Eldin care about?" You may be asking yourself that. You won't find the answer in your own head, because I'm far to complex to decipher like that. Just ask Airy. (Unless you are Airy, then just ask David) Nobody can get inside my head. So, I'm going to take a bit out of my head and show you. Then I'm going to lock the doors again. After all, we need to talk about something. Why not that? I care about me. Sounds like it's narcissism, don't it? Well, I can only tell you it isn't. I can't, obviously, force you to believe me. So, to present the fact more clearly, I care about who I am. Honestly, from what I know of myself, I'm far too generous to ever be a narsissist. Now you really don't believe me, do you? Here I am, bragging about how I'm so kind and generous. Well, it's true. I don't work in soup kitchens, I don't actively go out and aquire more things so that I might give them away, but I'm fully willing to give what I have to people I care about. This is defined as: everyone with a shread of decency. That includes you. Wonderful, ain't it? I don't mean to say I care more about my own well-being then that of others, the opposite is true. I just want to know who I am. Anyone who's either tried to decipher me or themselves knows how hard this is. An interesting thing about me, I believe, is my androgeny. It's awesome. I don't mean physical androgeny, I'm clearly a male if you choose to look at a sign that'll actually give you a sign as to my gender, such as the size of my adam's apple, the thickness of the bones in my skull (as they affect the shape of my face...), and other signs. What I find cool is mental androgeny. I lack most feminine traits, true enough, but I also lack most masculine traits. I don't hear about how I act like a girly-man from anyone who knows me, but I hear often enough that I act as though I lack gender altogether. I like that. It means that I'm different. It means I'm special. If you know anything concerning aura reading, mental androgeny as such is an 'indigo' trait. People who haven't been around on this plane yet, and are here to progress spiritual education, who are more important then you. I don't know how much credit I give that, but I do rather like it, and find it somewhat accurate. Not the greater importance, that is, only the obsession with enlightenment. I also know that I'm capable of changing in a rather dramatic way whenever I feel the need to. You have to understand, most people are entirely capable of changing whenever the 'adapt or die' ultimatum comes up. People are capable of becoming amazing things when they have to. It's the pressure on coal. It either turns it into a diamond or shatters it, depending on the kind of pressure. Thing is, I've never been exposed to that kind of pressure. I change not because I need to survive, but because I want to be better. It's not quite as sudden, but it happens to me all of the time. I've been told I'm mature, y'see, and I used to be somewhat of a freakin' moron. Simply because I was told this, I evaluated myself and changed. So, from what I understand, I'm not like you. Any of you. I'm bound for something different. Better? Worse? I don't know. Whatever it is, I'll never figure it out without knowing who I am. And that's a rather daunting task. So, what do you think about what I care about? Am I as vain as I might sound? What do you lot care about? I want to hear everything any of this made any of you think. |
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| Tharimil | Sep 17 2007, 04:03 PM Post #2 |
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Deep down, I think that's what everybody cares about, themselves and the people they're close to. I know that I feel like that, I'm always concerned about what to do for my future, or what makes some people hate me. But exactly why I don't talk about things like this, I've had a rough life. Nobody on this sweet earth should ever go through what I did (yes, I know, there are people that were worse off than me, but you have no idea, how it felt to begin your life with everyone who hates you.). That's why I talk about things that I know people don't care about. Because I wish to go through voluntary amnesia and forget everything in that dark time. That's why I talk like a nerd about manga, or the other stupid things in life, because my story is the least thing I want to tell other people, it's the last thing I want to remember. I don't want to be special. This little thought has been beaten into me ever since elementary school. Special means you stand out, to stand out means your going to be looked at weirdly. To be looked at weirdly means people will want to hurt you. Do I wish to be unique in some way? Yes. Yes I do. In fact, I'm actually beginning to recover and create my own identity, but other than that, I really shudder at my past. That's why I rarely let people know what I'm interested in. |
![]() Time is so precious. What will you do with it? The world was going down the tubes, they needed a scapegoat, they found me. Love, peace and CHICKEN GREASE!!! Don't be afraid to contact me for any reason! I don't bite! Often... or hard... usually... I am M.I.B. (Mucho Irresistible Boy) Talwyn
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| Airyanna Rose | Sep 17 2007, 04:09 PM Post #3 |
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Being mentally of both minds, meaning having no real tendencies toward either gender, is pretty rare. Personally, I have no idea about myself. Having lived with girls and associated with mostly male friends, I’m a bit mixed up. I can’t really tell you what either thinks like. Only what I think. And that’s something no one else can do, because I am so mixed up. But to have a true lack of gender bias is nice. It will help you out a lot in the long run. No, I don’t see your interest as being vain. It’s strange to me, because I’d rather think about anyone else from myself: I dislike thinking too hard about whatever I may turn out to be like. I think you are interesting, though. Surprise. You really don’t come across as the type who would care so much about others, though. I know you well enough to know it’s true. But your image as other people tend to see it is pretty much completely opposite. Another one of your complexities. It’s got a name, I know... Now what was it?? ...hmm. Oh well, I’ll think of it later.Now I’ve really said all I can about this. As you said, you are far too complex a creature for me to understand... I did my best to answer. |
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| Eldin | Sep 17 2007, 09:37 PM Post #4 |
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You don't understand, Thari. It isn't about making a life for me and mine. It's about what the hell I am. It's about who the hell I am. Future's important. Past's important, present's important, but this crosses all of it. What I am, at my very core, is independant of time and space. It determines where I fit into everything. It's independant, but everything else for me will always depend on it.
Man, this is exactly where none of that applies. We all care here. Special means you stand out here, but the chain ends right there. Trust us a bit, will you? This is the perfect place for you to establish your own identity, because we don't know your name or face, and because if anyone even thinks that something about you is wrong, I'll ban them myself. I promise. Please, open up a bit. Give us something deep. Give us something real. Give us something to hang on to.
Well, I suppose I've described myself inadequately. It's not that I'm of both minds, it's more that I don't have anything commonly attributed to either. I'm just John. I can't relate all that well to either gender, exactly. I relate to people, not genders, is, I suppose, what I'd say is I was inclined to sound like some kind of worthless scrap of a man who spoke in phrases instead of words. Thank you for understanding. That's all I can say to that. And now, I want all of you to tell me what you care about. What matters? What do people need to hear? What's something that's real to you? Something essential and pure. Anything that you care about. If you have anything to add to what I've said, great, but that's not what this is all about. |
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| Airyanna Rose | Sep 17 2007, 10:46 PM Post #5 |
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I don't think I have ever been right about you yet, Eldy... And Thari, I completely agree with him on this one. If you ever had people who would love to get to know you for who you are, it's those of us here. We're not exactly normal anyways... Look at Eldin. ![]() As for what I care about, it's complicated. I care about people more than I value my own life. I'd do anything to help someone out. But at the same time I can't stand being physically near other people. They’re all so different from me, they expect me to conform to what they want, and I'm just not able to become comfortable with that. I spend my time with animals instead. They understand me far better than any one person ever has, other than online of course. Special doesn’t apply to me, but I am certainly not normal. Anyway, that's all I can come up with. You might have a better idea of who I am if you talk to me for a while. But just ask Eldin: it's not easy to talk to me. |
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| Tharimil | Sep 18 2007, 07:07 PM Post #6 |
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Funny, you seem rather easy for me to talk to Airy. As for Eldin, the chain may end there for you, but for me, that's a completely different story. I trust you guys, in fact, I actually admire some of you a bit. And yes, I do understand, I said basically what you said, in a different way. I guess I've always had a hard time communicating to people. I've always had a different mindset, I guess. A few years ago I've figured out that I have a mild case of Aspergers syndrome. It's not anything serious. It just means I think differently than all of you. Where you guys might see the sky as light blue, I just think it's blue. You guys might see a carving knife, a paring knife, etc. I just see a knife. I say things in a completely different way, that sometimes people don't understand what I'm saying. So yes, I do understand. Will I let you guys in? Maybe later. Do I trust you guys? Completely. First off, you're not a bunch of scumbags. Two, I've seen everyone on this site care for one another at some point in time. So, I guess that's it for now. I guess it's time for bed, because in the morning I have a date with a screaming banshee called 'alarm clock' which I desperately want to throw out the window. |
![]() Time is so precious. What will you do with it? The world was going down the tubes, they needed a scapegoat, they found me. Love, peace and CHICKEN GREASE!!! Don't be afraid to contact me for any reason! I don't bite! Often... or hard... usually... I am M.I.B. (Mucho Irresistible Boy) Talwyn
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| Eldin | Sep 18 2007, 07:58 PM Post #7 |
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Heh. According to official government-type records, I also have asperger's. Granted, official govenment-type records happen to be wrong, but I find that an interesting coincidence. |
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| Tharimil | Sep 19 2007, 03:41 PM Post #8 |
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Indeed. |
![]() Time is so precious. What will you do with it? The world was going down the tubes, they needed a scapegoat, they found me. Love, peace and CHICKEN GREASE!!! Don't be afraid to contact me for any reason! I don't bite! Often... or hard... usually... I am M.I.B. (Mucho Irresistible Boy) Talwyn
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| Eldin | Oct 5 2007, 10:26 AM Post #9 |
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So, I've got RSAD. Reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder. I get sad during spring and summer. I don't like bright lights and heat. That's not very important, on the whole, but an interesting bit is this: In the United States, less then 1% of the population suffers from this. Most are in the south, with the number becoming increasingly small as you head farther north. I live in the northwest. Longitude and Latitude 123, 45 (which is also sorta weird, itself). Additionally, almost twice as many women then men have it. I am not female. It's far more common in those with bipolar disorder then those without. I am not bipolar. The odds of me having it are miniscule. It's almost impossible. Yet I do. Another little scrap of evidence that says I'm different. |
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| Tharimil | Oct 5 2007, 03:25 PM Post #10 |
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The longitude and latitude part is just creepy. Although I've never heard of this thing, that's really interesting. As for me, I really don't have anything to add. What I've said about myself is about me in a nutshell. |
![]() Time is so precious. What will you do with it? The world was going down the tubes, they needed a scapegoat, they found me. Love, peace and CHICKEN GREASE!!! Don't be afraid to contact me for any reason! I don't bite! Often... or hard... usually... I am M.I.B. (Mucho Irresistible Boy) Talwyn
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| Eldin | Oct 6 2007, 04:25 PM Post #11 |
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Oh, come on. Someone else here has to be passionate about something. Anyone. |
Elder Oromis ![]() According to me, I'm the sexiest Wyrda Admin. "Grade oblige." | |
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| Tharimil | Oct 6 2007, 06:26 PM Post #12 |
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I don't think anyone's really interested in this topic. *shrug* Meh... |
![]() Time is so precious. What will you do with it? The world was going down the tubes, they needed a scapegoat, they found me. Love, peace and CHICKEN GREASE!!! Don't be afraid to contact me for any reason! I don't bite! Often... or hard... usually... I am M.I.B. (Mucho Irresistible Boy) Talwyn
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| Eldin | Oct 6 2007, 09:25 PM Post #13 |
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People who find this topic uninteresting make me sad a little inside... |
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Another one of your complexities. It’s got a name, I know... Now what was it?? ...hmm. Oh well, I’ll think of it later.
2:27 AM Jul 11